Just a Tuesday

So...yep, that's what's going : ) Pretty regular day.

Kid up and off to school, pet up and off to work. Laundry is done, house straightened up. I had en errand to run today, but that is not going to work out.

I start my new job on Monday, which I am happy about. It seems like it will work out, I have not heard anything to the contrary, so that is good. I also have an interview this afternoon for another job, not real sure I am interested in it, but I know it would pay better, so I am not turning anything down at this point. It's a phone screen, so it's no real skin off my nose to talk to the company. I was contacted about a job yesterday, that would be a better gig for me, if it all worked out, but we will see. I will start the job I have, bird in the hand and all, and just see how everything else works out.

I'm still broke, ugh, the unemployment has not kicked in/retroed yet; should be a pretty hefty check when it breaks free, but that would be another week or so, so we shall see how well/if all that works out. So, I am seriously dependent on pet right now, which sucks, but he is being great about it. Soooo supportive, I love him so much. Yesterday, I managed to get a very cheap haircut, and bought a box of cheap drugstore hair color, so at least I feel better about how I look : ) The haircut is decent for 13 bucks, got the dead ends off and it moves better, and the color is pretty good : ) pet's oldest helped me color it, so that was fun time for the two of us : ) Nice way to spend the afternoon with some girl time : ) I will very glad when I can afford to take both of us back to the salon again. Sigh.

This past weekend I had a nice girl's getaway with my 3 very good friends : ) It was great to spend some time away with my friends : ) pet was so supportive of that, he knew that I needed that time. God bless him, he went to help his best friend and family move. So I had a great time, and he worked all weekend : ( I think the time away was good for both of us : ) We missed each other, and I was VERY glad to see him when I got home! Yay pet! Sounds like the move he was a party was pretty disorganized, so he was a little frustrated, but oh well, he is a good friend and did the right thing by going. I am very proud of him : )

So my weekend was good, the kids were both at their mother's, pet was gone to help his friend, and I had time with my girl posse. We laughed, we cried, the whole gambit of emotions in 24 hours! My girls were wonderfully supportive, they sported the whole trip, knowing that I did not have the money to go at all. It's the little things people do that make all the difference....one of my friends lent me a spare microwave that she had, ours died a few weeks ago, and pet and I just don't have the money to replace it right now. One of the others lent me a pair of sunglasses, because of course mine busted last week, and no funds to replace those right now either. The time with my friend was much needed, and I was very grateful to have it. We are all going through some tough stuff right now, each in our own way, so it was good for us to be there and support each other.

pet and I have been pretty affectionate and touchy feely with each other lately, but not a whole lot of actual sex, and by that I mean penetration. The other night we did masturbate in front of each other....that was pretty hot. I love to watch pet beat my cock. OH! And I did let pet cum the other day....not sure why. Guess I felt sorry for him, looking all desperate and stuff, poor thing. It was ALOT of cum, that's for sure. It was more of a milking really, because I tried to make sure that he did not really enjoy it/have a true orgasm. So that was good : )

I have been chatting with the Dom still, no real progress there, except some hot fantasies/ideas exchanged. Scheduling has prevented us from meeting, but I am sure that that will be rectified soon. I was supposed to have a meeting with "e" this week, but not sure that will work out now, with the holiday and e going out of town an all, but that's ok, we will work it out I am sure : )

pet seems to think that I am really getting into this cuckolding thing, and I have to say that my fantasies of late would seem to true that up. I keep thinking about something the Dom said to me, that he wants to fuck me while pet watches. Which, I must say, I find really, really hot. As I told pet, the fantasy I have in my head involves us in a hotel room, the Dom is on top of me, fucking me hard, but I can't even see his face. I am focused on pet, he is sitting on a chair in the corner of the room, fully dressed, khaki pants, oxford shirt, sitting on his hands, as he is not allowed to touch himself at all. Our eyes our locked, I am naked, the Dom is fucking me hard, but I only have eyes for pet. I am completely focused on him, as my body is moved back and forth by the Dom. I can smell him, taste him, feel him, but my eyes are only for pet. My eyes belong to him. This is our moment, our intimacy, our fantasy. The Dom fucking me is simply a placeholder in our moment.

I am a firm believer that you must nurture your primary relationship. If you are going to invite others into your intimate relationship, some things are reserved only for your primary relationship, some things are special, some things are so important that they remain only for my love. My eyes and eye contact, are some of those things. I love my pet, love him so much, am so desperately in love with him. The cuckolding has not changed that, he is the One for me. My partner, my life, my love. If anything, the cuckolding has brought us closer together.

That's all for now, most fantasies to post later : )

-D