Domina has been terrific this past month and more. Despite all the stress of looking for a job she manages to take care of the house while she is there as well as help care for my children. On the one hand I know she has the need to be productive, but on the other she’s exhausting herself trying to contribute over and above the stress and anxiety that she is under. She is an amazing woman!
On top of this, she’s been making time to exercise and she has noticeably slimmed down. She is looking gooooood! I think her looking extra sexy these days is likely contributing to the erection I’ve been sporting the last several days. This and her renewed efforts to keep me sexually denied. I find her even more sexually appealing when she shows the care and desire to manage my orgasms for our benefit. I’m still reminiscing of our time this morning, how beautiful she looked, how wonderful she felt in my arms.
To show my appreciation I made a suggestion to Domina a little earlier today. As we can’t be recklessly noisy indoors when the kids are home, I asked if she would like to take me out to the shed after our walk tonight where she can spank or paddle me. I said I thought it would be good for us. She agreed, but wanted to know why I thought it was good:
1. I know that she has a need to feel that power. It is a great physical and emotional release for her. With her anxiety over a job offer looming, I know she could extra use the pastime.
2. As her submissive, I want to be the one to satisfy these needs more. As our readers know, pain sometimes leads me to react with anger. I don’t act out in retaliation, but I’m not a good subject when I allow anger to help me cope with pain. I need to learn to be much more passive. I think Domina might like it much better, for several reasons, if say I learned to cry instead.
3. I need discipline. This would obviously be harsher than usual as it would be meant as pure punishment. I think we both acknowledge in our D/s relationship, and my behavior, would improve with this practice.
4. The intimacy would bring us together. I need to be more appreciative of her efforts to correct me. I should kiss her and thank her for her love. The release is for her, but the correction is for me. Sometimes it takes energy and I admit that it is of her love that she cares enough to make me a better partner and submissive to her.
As you can tell, I’m very excited! I can’t wait to see my Domina and kiss her!
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