Up, Down, All Around and Dom D

You ever one of those days where you just don't wanna?

Well, today is one of those days for me. I need to vacuum and straighten up the house as pet's parents are coming over later, and I don't wanna. I need to get my mother later and take her to the doctor, and I don't wanna. I need to take a shower and get dressed, and I don't wanna. I just don't wanna. I am not really depressed or anything, I just don't feel like it. I need to pack for my girl's weekend away that starts tomorrow morning early, and I don't really feel like doing that either. Ugh.

I am a little tired, woke up at 4 a.m. with some stomach issues, but they seem to have subsided now. pet told his oldest to school and I took his youngest. I had to ask pet for gas money this morning, that was humiliating and depressing, but I am trying to focus on the fact that I have a job now and will get a paychecks before Christmas, so that's good.

I feel kind of strange today. I have been chatting with a Dom that likes women of my type, short, chunky and busty and he seems interested in getting together for some fun. Which is fine, but pet seems very turned on by this idea. He says it is because I am seem very excited, which I am, I won't lie about that, the idea of being with another Dom, someone that is somewhat challenging to me, is interesting to me, and exciting. But pet seems much more excited about the idea then I would have expected. So I guess that it is making me feel kind of odd about the whole thing. He says he is jealous, and that is why it is exciting, but I don't know, it just seems strange right now, and I am not at all sure how I feel about the whole thing now.

Anyway, I am kind of all over the map right now anyway, so I am not sure how much to trust my feelings on anything right now. Honestly, I have been feeling so poorly physically of late that it is just hard to focus on anything. I am having trouble with my breathing, and I thought it was my seasonal asthma, and I know that my blood pressure is up, with all the anxiety I have been feeling of late, I just don't feel good. The breathing is better today, so that is good, still not perfect, but better. I am just so ragged out all the time right now. I am getting some things done, but not half of what I used to get done a few weeks ago. Sigh, it is very frustrating. I am waiting for my benefits to kick in so I can get to the doctor, get back on my meds, that should help.

And I am very horny, horny all the time for pet, but when it comes time to make love and I lay down, all I want to do is pass out and go to sleep. Poor pet, he is being very understanding, as I talk dirty and smack to him all during the day, and promise him hot lovemaking at night, and then I fall asleep : ( It's no good, he is being wonderful about it, bu I feel rotten for disappointing him, and I DO want to make love with him, so much, but I just keep falling out. Very frustrating.

Well, I thought I felt like posting, but not really-

Later-

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