To answer your first question, yes we are still alive!! It’s just been a long hard holiday season that we hope was filled with joyful blessings for you. To tackle the next question, it may take a little bit of time to recap but we are pleased to fill you in on what we’ve been up to. Given our normal adventures there are not many juicy details to offer. The kids mutinied as expected on occasions like Christmas Eve to spend more time with Domina and myself. Not so much that it was mutiny, they just preferred not to give up any time with their dear old dad and his hottie woman. Note that ‘hottie’ is my own personal embellishment and not how the kids generally refer to Domina. So, as you can imagine, private time was slim pickings. Add to that a host of other frustrations, financial and personal. Domina has been doing great at her new position but she is severely underpaid compared to what she used to make and her young tenant has been flacking out on paying rent. Trust me, December was not the month to decide you can’t pay especially after avoiding correspondence about it for 3 weeks. As for me, my closest relatives are about ready for the loony bin as my brother flirts with my parents sending him back to jail. This is the first time my family didn’t all get together on Christmas. My brother not only skipped town, but ditched his own kids. There’s more, but I think you all get the picture. It was a season of high anxiety, but still intermixed with many moments of gratitude and love.
As is always the case when life’s pressures step up a notch, our D/s activities dwindle. Although we didn’t really recognize it at the time, I think one of our low points was at Domina’s last date with e. It had been a serious few days of dealing with financial strife and the slow progress of my attorney completing divorce papers certainly not helping either. I didn’t feel the least bit submissive. Too much to do and too much to manage. Likewise, Domina felt less than dominant with life and bill collectors knocking at our door. So we took our stress out on each other a bit. Normally we would be all over each other the eve before a cuckolding event. Instead it was a rather somber mood. I couldn’t flip the switch to get excited. Now, while I didn’t discourage her from having her date, I wasn’t pouring on the love and support I normally do either. And so it was that Domina set out on her date and had her play time with e. Yes, later that night we made love on the bad that she had earlier has sex with e on and it was hot. But I think the lack of passion we had that morning impacted her date. She told me e later indicated that it didn’t really hit the spot for him. That was it for Domina. I wasn’t in a submissive headspace, and hadn’t been for over a month, and now this. Domina just wanted to feel sexy and desirable without the need of D/s. She told me she wanted a break. I’m not sure how I felt. I wasn’t totally indifferent, but then I really felt more dominant and appreciated the freedom. I didn’t fight. The next morning I simply went back to a normal routine that included dusting off the old boxers and dressing 100% man.
Domina said it very well the other day. It can take a lot of energy to be dominant. I truly believe it takes practice for most people. You might think it’s should be easy to just tell a sub what you want and maybe dish out a little punishment when things get lax. But it really is the position of responsibility. Sometimes when I deal with people at work and then the dysfunctional people in my family that all force me to be in charge, it is a treat to be able to come home and be submissive without choice. Dominants in a D/s relationship want these too at times, not to have to worry about making a decision. Well, a good week or so went by. Jobs and family matters started to ease just a little. And one morning Domina watched me getting dressed for work and lamented that I was not putting on my panties. In an instant I reverted back and felt ashamed that I wasn’t in them as she prefers me to be. For the first time in over a month I felt like we were headed in the right direction.
We made plans for New Year’s with Mistress Rora and g. Between scheduling and the long overdue (and well deserved might I add) nervous breakdowns we were compelled to reschedule. This was the day we finally hit bottom out of exhaustion, and an entirely too drawn out explanation of why you have not heard a peep from us in nearly 2 months. So that behind us now, we can talk about more positive things. In fact, I think like the way the new year has rolled in, I’ll start fresh with an entirely new post that is totally positive in nature!
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