Hot Times Ahead

Well, well, much to tell!

Ok, so anthony and I are trying desperately to get back on track with our D/s and our intimacy. We have had some hot times lately (woop woop!) but we are hopeful that there are more hot times ahead.

Unfortunately, I had to stay home sick today. I did not want to, I have only been at my job about 2.5 months, and I did not want to call in sick, but it just could not be avoided. Terrible headache and running to the bathroom every few minutes does not make for a productive work day. Well, I finally found the right pills for the head, and the stomach seems to have slowed down, so it's hi-ho hi-ho back to work I go tomorrow, but at least it will be Wednesday right?? Good stuff.

So, this weekend is my birthday weekend, the birthday is on Sunday, the big 4 2, but that's ok, I am happy with my age, and feel comfortable in my own skin most of the time. Before we get to the fun stuff, let's do a little house-cleaning.

1. anthony has filed for divorce, finally. For those of you who have been following our journey here, you may know what a big moment this is. It is huge. She was served divorce papers on Monday (yesterday), so that was kind of rough, of course there was a nasty message at work for anthony, and apparently she has done some financial stupidity that will really hurt anthony/us....but, it is done. Yesterday was kind of a rough day for all of us, but we are working through it, and we will get through it together : ) The kids are doing ok, which I am glad to see, was worried about them both, but they seem to be handling it ok so far.

2. My difficult tenant is finally on her way out, woohoo!! Several weeks ago she told me she was moving across the country for a job, works for me, go on! She has been nothing but a difficult, non-rent paying thing since Day 1, and I was glad to see her go. EXCEPT, she put a hole in the bathroom floor, didn't finish the paint job (and I paid for the supplies and paint) and move things into the house from my shed that she was not supposed to as she was prohibited that in her lease. So I am SO glad to see her go! Today, I showed the house to a friend and her boyfriend and they are going to take it-woop woop! I am going to give them a discount on the rent, but it will be totally worth it to have someone in there that I know and trust! So things are looking up, and then after I show it today, the tenant texts me and says that now she is NOT moving, and could we work something out??? Are you kidding me?? Um no, I told her I had already rented it, and she said she would be out by the 1st. Originally, she was supposed to be out by this Friday, so we shall see. I am so done with her, and will be so glad to see her go. anthony and I can get in there and make the repairs we need to make before my friend moves in : ) Now, we will see if she really leaves...thank God I had presence of mind to give her a letter officially terminating her lease...at the end of the month, or I might be stuck with her...UGH. Perish the thought. anthony has been wonderfully supportive during this whole fiasco, even taking the day off to fix the hole : ) I love him so much!

3. Work is going well I think; and I think I am performing well. I REALLY love my boss and my Director, they are great people, but I just need to make more money, and I need to have a bigger job, I think. I don't know how to explain it, the work is ok, the people are nice, but I am used to something else. Don't get me wrong, I am VERY grateful for the opportunity, and the paycheck, God knows I am grateful for that, and to feel useful again, for sure. I just need more...sigh.

4. I feel like I am failing on the homefront. I try and try to keep the house clean, keep the frig filled with decent food, keep up with the laundry, keep up with what the kids need...but I just can't. I am doing my best, and just feel like I am failing all the time : ( I really try, but I just feel like I am drowning in trying to keep up all the time. Do most working women with families feel this way? Ugh. Such a challenge, and I feel like I get further and further behind all the time. Meanwhile, anthony feels like he is no longer in control of his house, and does not feel like he knows where anything is. My dogs are a problem, their nails mark up anthony's floor, the dog hair is constant, and my male dog bit his father this past weekend
:(. He has bitten before, and I am going to have to consider getting rid of him. I don't want to, but I have to consider what is best for my family now. Sigh. anthony is being understanding, but I kow that he does not trust the dog, and I am tired of not being able to trust him with other people. He has nipped at anthony's youngest, about 2 years ago, but he is just unpredictable. Sigh. Big decision to be made there. Sigh.

No wonder I have had a massive tension headache for two days and had to stay home today, right?

Anyway, ON to the positive things!

1. We have a lovely dinner party to go to on Saturday night because of our friends Mistress Rora and g. There will be 2 other FemDom couples there and one other D/s couple, a Male Dom/Fem sub couple. I am VERY excited as it will be pet and I's first real outing with a group of lifestyle-like-minded folk. I had the opportunity to have a nice phone conversation with Mistress Rora this afternoon, it was so nice to speak to her, and have a Domme to Domme talk : ) She is a really lovely person, and I am very much looking for to the dinner and going out with anthony, like a adults. We just don't get that much time alone, and it is hard sometimes. We need alone adult time. I miss that level of intimacy with him, very much.

2. e and I have been talking again : ) I am glad to hear from my friend again. Whatever else happened between us (which was quite enjoyable) e and I have been friends for a long time, and I do so enjoy chatting with him. Yesterday and today e and I have been chatting, very hotly I might add, about domming my pet as a team. e suggested this, and wow, it sounded HOT to me. He is very happy to fuck my pet up the ass and have him suck his cock! As most of you know, this has been a fantasy of mine for a long, long time. Although I must say, that I have never really thought of domming my pet with another man/Dom before, but doesn't this sound HOTTTT?? I think so, so pet and I will explore this further with e. Perhaps a nice dinner to get to know each other a bit? I will think on it and see how we should proceed.

3. I have a possible job opportunity with a major firm. I have interviewed twice, and both seemed to go well. I followed-up with my contact today; and he said that they would be meeting with the Client this week and expected to move forward shortly. I am not exactly sure what that means, sounds like a stall tactic to me, but at least he got in touch with me and did not blow me off, right? Well, we shall see.

4. My birthday weekend is shaping up nicely. We are child-free, or we are supposed to be, we shall see how that really goes now that the kids' mother has been served, the oldest may elect NOT to go over there this weekend, so that is always a possibility. So, we shall see, but I am thinking positively. pet has been told to come up with a written plan for taking care of me and helping me relax this weekend. The plan is due to me tomorrow by noon. We will see if he actually comes up with it...things have been rough for him the last few days, but I do hope that he remembers this commitment to me. It is important to me that he does.

I have brunch with my girl posse on Saturday, so that should be fun : ) I am very much looking forward to that. I have not seen my girls in awhile and we have so much to catch up on! : )

Then we have our dinner party Saturday night. I am hoping to just relax on Sunday, that would be very nice, just to relax and not do anything. I hope that anthony and I can make that happen. I just want some time alone with him to relax and enjoy each other. Hopefully that will include some freaky fun!! : )

Well, that's about it for now...I am sure I will have more to post as days go on, and I will definitely update the blog after our dinner engagement.

I hope all have a GREAT week!!

-D